I'm alone now. Mummy and daddy went to work. Alicia is still sleeping. I'm really hungry, i didnt eat anything for dinner yesterday coz i was too tired and i fell asleep right after dance practice.
I have nothing to do now. Actually i have lots of things to do like study maths, read Age Of the Orphans, doing my quiet time, take a bath or go to the gym. But i'm just too lazy.. and hungry too.
So i shall just grab something to eat then watch Harry Potter. Sounds good aye?
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Safe and sound.
I'm back home. After 6 days of nscfl camp, i now think that it wasnt enough.
Throughout the camp, God had taught me a lot, and i want to hear from Him more. I realised that i used to be a really self- centered person, wheter or not i'm still one while typing this post, that i'm not so sure. But i will try my best to change. To put God first in my life. For He had thought of me whilst on the cross.
I also fasted and for the first time. 5 hours. What surprised me was that time passed really fast. Hahaha. And i wasnt that hungry after that.
For games night, i wore a cheerleading costume. Complete with a huge ribbon and red socks. Thanks to my beloved seniors. And i think i look pretty good in it. Hahaha. XD
Special thanks to all the coaches and other campers, especially my team mates, Uncle Michael and Uncle Yew Seong. Not to forget sis Marianne for the heart touching stories.
It was a great camp. And i look forward for NSCFL camp 2012. Even if i have to rush back from singapore for it. That is, IF i really get to study there. =D
Throughout the camp, God had taught me a lot, and i want to hear from Him more. I realised that i used to be a really self- centered person, wheter or not i'm still one while typing this post, that i'm not so sure. But i will try my best to change. To put God first in my life. For He had thought of me whilst on the cross.
I also fasted and for the first time. 5 hours. What surprised me was that time passed really fast. Hahaha. And i wasnt that hungry after that.
For games night, i wore a cheerleading costume. Complete with a huge ribbon and red socks. Thanks to my beloved seniors. And i think i look pretty good in it. Hahaha. XD
Special thanks to all the coaches and other campers, especially my team mates, Uncle Michael and Uncle Yew Seong. Not to forget sis Marianne for the heart touching stories.
It was a great camp. And i look forward for NSCFL camp 2012. Even if i have to rush back from singapore for it. That is, IF i really get to study there. =D
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
my reads
I'm finally done with The Five People You Meet In Heaven. It's a really nice book and it opens me to view life and death in a different way, not like how i used to. It makes me ponder am i living life to the fullness.. What i love about the book is the quotes about life.
That there are no random acts. that we are all connected. That you can no more separate one life from another than you can separate a breeze from the wind.
The Blue Man held out his hand. “Fairness,” he said, “does not govern life and death. If it did, no good person would ever die young.”
It is because the human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect. That death doesn’t just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed.
You say you should have died instead of me. But during my time on earth, people died instead of me, too. It happens every day. When lightning strikes a minute after you are gone, or an airplane crashes that you might have been on… We think such things are random. But there is a balance to it all. One withers, another grows, Birth and death are part of a whole.
“Strangers,” the Blue Man said, “are just family you have yet to come to know.”
“No life is a waste,” the Blue Man said. “The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone.”
“Sacrifice,” The Captain said. “You made one. I made one. We all make them. But you were angry over yours. You kept thinking about what you lost.
You didn’t get it. Sacrifice is a part of life. It’s supposed to be. It’s not something to regret. It’s something to aspire to. Little sacrifices. Big sacrifices. A mother works so her son can go to school. A daughter moves home to take care of her sick father.”
That’s the thing. Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you’re not really losing it. You’re just passing it on to someone else.
Parents rarely let go of their children, so children let go of them. They move on. They move away. The moments that used to define them – a mother’s approval, a father’s nod – are covered by moments of their own accomplishments. It is not until much later, as the skin sags and the heart weakens, that children understand; their stories, and all their accomplishments, sit atop the stories of their mothers and fathers, stones upon stones, beneath the waters of their lives.
Love like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive.
Lost love is still love, Eddie. It takes a different form, that’s all. You can’t see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it.
Life has to end,” she said. “Love doesn’t.”
Five different people, five different stories, five different lessons. I cant say there's a drastic change in my life after reading the book, but i can say i know more, about love, forgiveness, sacrifice, loyalty, and holding bitterness- the little bits that make up my life.
Looking forward to Tuesday With Morie. =)
That there are no random acts. that we are all connected. That you can no more separate one life from another than you can separate a breeze from the wind.
The Blue Man held out his hand. “Fairness,” he said, “does not govern life and death. If it did, no good person would ever die young.”
It is because the human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect. That death doesn’t just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed.
You say you should have died instead of me. But during my time on earth, people died instead of me, too. It happens every day. When lightning strikes a minute after you are gone, or an airplane crashes that you might have been on… We think such things are random. But there is a balance to it all. One withers, another grows, Birth and death are part of a whole.
“Strangers,” the Blue Man said, “are just family you have yet to come to know.”
“No life is a waste,” the Blue Man said. “The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone.”
“Sacrifice,” The Captain said. “You made one. I made one. We all make them. But you were angry over yours. You kept thinking about what you lost.
You didn’t get it. Sacrifice is a part of life. It’s supposed to be. It’s not something to regret. It’s something to aspire to. Little sacrifices. Big sacrifices. A mother works so her son can go to school. A daughter moves home to take care of her sick father.”
That’s the thing. Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you’re not really losing it. You’re just passing it on to someone else.
Parents rarely let go of their children, so children let go of them. They move on. They move away. The moments that used to define them – a mother’s approval, a father’s nod – are covered by moments of their own accomplishments. It is not until much later, as the skin sags and the heart weakens, that children understand; their stories, and all their accomplishments, sit atop the stories of their mothers and fathers, stones upon stones, beneath the waters of their lives.
Love like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive.
Lost love is still love, Eddie. It takes a different form, that’s all. You can’t see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it.
Life has to end,” she said. “Love doesn’t.”
Five different people, five different stories, five different lessons. I cant say there's a drastic change in my life after reading the book, but i can say i know more, about love, forgiveness, sacrifice, loyalty, and holding bitterness- the little bits that make up my life.
Looking forward to Tuesday With Morie. =)
And all will fade away.
I'm glad i let go.Well, i'm not gonna start another emo post here. The old me has gone. I'll try my best to be cheerful and happy all the time, and hopefully my heart will feel the same. Fighting!
I love quotes. Just a few to share.
One problem with gazing too frequently into the past is that we may turn around to find the future has run out on us. ~Michael Cibenko
You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present. ~Jan Glidewell
If you are still talking about what you did yesterday, you haven't done much today. ~Author Unknown
The past is a good place to visit, but I wouldn't want to live there. ~Author Unknown
The Past is the textbook of tyrants; the Future the Bible of the Free. Those who are solely governed by the Past stand like Lot's wife, crystallized in the act of looking backward, and forever incapable of looking before. ~Herman Melville, White Jacket
We dont wanna be like Lot's wife, do we?
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
#94
It's only 8.43am, but i'm really tired already. I woke up at 6am just to go to the gym with daddy. I ran 1km and cycled for more than 15 minutes. It might be a piece of cake for others but for a lazy pig like me, it almost took away my life.
Till now, my legs still hurt. It's a bit numb. My whole body's still sticky but i'm lazy to bathe.
I wanna sleep!!!
Monday, November 14, 2011
LOOK!
at her body!This would definitely be on my wish list for my next birthday.
And also my to-achieve-list for this holiday.
Why.
I had a weird dream last night. In that dream, i had a baby brother, 2 months old i think. And while i was baking cookies for him, he was in the oven too. But he came out alright, with some black stains on his skin but still alive. He's just a baby, but he doesnt sleep.And i woke up, shivering.
Does this dream means anything?
Mummy is mad.
She says i'm on youtube too much lately. She says i shouldnt be addicted over snsd so much. She says i should start studying for next year. She says i should prepare for the camp next week. She says i should take care of my personal stuffs. She says i must be brave to call the travel agent.
And she also says a lot of stuffs i dont understand. She keeps beating around the bush..
Just because i wouldnt go tesco with her.
And also because i ate her scrambled eggs with ham.
And she also says a lot of stuffs i dont understand. She keeps beating around the bush..
Just because i wouldnt go tesco with her.
And also because i ate her scrambled eggs with ham.
Gathering with 6A
After more than 1 year not seeing them, i went for a gathering with my primary school friends yesterday. Oh, how i miss them. The boys changed a lot, but the girls still look the same. XD
We had lunch at Pizza Hut, then we went to a cyber cafe. It was my first time going to a place like this, i was a bit scared at first. Probably because of all the stories my mum used to tell me about cyber cafes. Since we went in a group, we got a discount. RM 3 for 3 hours. Quite cheap for me. =D However, the speakers for my computer aint working and i was afraid to tell the workers there. Fyi, they look like gangsters. I'm not a gamer. So i just sat there and read blogs. I almost fell asleep, such a comfy place. After 1 hour, i couldnt take it anymore, i was too sleepy, so i went back home. Dayumm, i wasted RM2.
Mummy scolded me for going there, papa was okay bout it but he warned me not to go that kind of places anymore. But i'm glad i went, it was a first time and also an eye opener for me.
But still, i shall not go to a cyber cafe ever again, never.
We had lunch at Pizza Hut, then we went to a cyber cafe. It was my first time going to a place like this, i was a bit scared at first. Probably because of all the stories my mum used to tell me about cyber cafes. Since we went in a group, we got a discount. RM 3 for 3 hours. Quite cheap for me. =D However, the speakers for my computer aint working and i was afraid to tell the workers there. Fyi, they look like gangsters. I'm not a gamer. So i just sat there and read blogs. I almost fell asleep, such a comfy place. After 1 hour, i couldnt take it anymore, i was too sleepy, so i went back home. Dayumm, i wasted RM2.
Mummy scolded me for going there, papa was okay bout it but he warned me not to go that kind of places anymore. But i'm glad i went, it was a first time and also an eye opener for me.
But still, i shall not go to a cyber cafe ever again, never.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Updated.
I'm living a meaningless life now. I have nothing important to do at the time being. I feel so lifeless nowadays. I should be studying maths and english, but i'm just too lazy. Procrastination is the thief of time. So true.
School ended for the year. I was suppose to be in school today, but nahhhh. Today's activity was futsal but i hate being under the sun so i stayed home. =P
I'm watching Invincible Youth Season 1. I love all the G7 members. They're all so awesome! Yuri is the funniest to me. Too bad she wont be there for Season 2. =(
I just painted my toe nails blue. Light blue to be exact.
I'm having dance practice in church tomorrow. I'm becoming so stiff lately. Oh no, I'm aging. D=
I realise i'm getting fatter too, gotta hit the gym again later.
Good news, Alicia is going New Zealand with me. =DDDD That means Henry, Baby and Angel can tag along too. After Alicia's spm, we're going shopping for new clothes. Daddy promised.
I just got the letter from SU. Needa start preparing for NSCFL. I'm excited for it since it's my first time. Hmm.. 6 days away for home, i'll miss my family.. and of course, the Internet.
I'm still waiting for the school placement email. They say they'll send it to me on the second week of December. It's one month away. But i'm feeling very kancheong dy.
Me no like waiting.
School ended for the year. I was suppose to be in school today, but nahhhh. Today's activity was futsal but i hate being under the sun so i stayed home. =P
I'm watching Invincible Youth Season 1. I love all the G7 members. They're all so awesome! Yuri is the funniest to me. Too bad she wont be there for Season 2. =(
I just painted my toe nails blue. Light blue to be exact.
I'm having dance practice in church tomorrow. I'm becoming so stiff lately. Oh no, I'm aging. D=
I realise i'm getting fatter too, gotta hit the gym again later.
Good news, Alicia is going New Zealand with me. =DDDD That means Henry, Baby and Angel can tag along too. After Alicia's spm, we're going shopping for new clothes. Daddy promised.
I just got the letter from SU. Needa start preparing for NSCFL. I'm excited for it since it's my first time. Hmm.. 6 days away for home, i'll miss my family.. and of course, the Internet.
I'm still waiting for the school placement email. They say they'll send it to me on the second week of December. It's one month away. But i'm feeling very kancheong dy.
Me no like waiting.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Oh crap.
I have IBT tomorrow. I paid rm75 for English, Science and Maths. I'm not prepared at all. I dont know what to study. Oh crap.
Another new favourite.
Sungha Jung!!!!
Go check him out on facebook. He's so awesome.
#proudtobeanasian
Go check him out on facebook. He's so awesome.
#proudtobeanasian
Disappointed.
Something bad happened in the ktm yesterday, and as a malaysian myself, i really felt embarassed to be one at that moment. What ever happen to 1 Malaysia? Being united as one? Those teachings in Moral and Sivik textbooks are all lies. When you're in trouble, no one will help you. This is life. This is the world.
Maybe papa was right, i should just go to Singapore and never come back.
And i thought, things would be better than before. Well, i'd rather live on trees than facing those people.
But at least now, i know not to be that stupid anymore.
Maybe papa was right, i should just go to Singapore and never come back.
And i thought, things would be better than before. Well, i'd rather live on trees than facing those people.
But at least now, i know not to be that stupid anymore.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Something bout me.
Since i'm bored..Things i like:
1. Pink
2. Teddies
3. Books. Lots and lots of books.
4. Chocolate
5. Joining camps
6. Meeting new people
7. Watching dramas
Things i dislike
1. Curses
2. Really hot weather
3. Being under the hawt sun
4. Growing sideways
5. Getting Bs in exams
6. Chillies, inions. garlics, carrots, kiwis
7. The dark
Things i want:
1. To be a succesful doctor
2. Make lotsa money, so i can bless others.
3. More books!
4. More nais dramas!
5. More As in exams
6. A long lasting relationship, not now though.
7. Study in Singapore
Miracle.
I went to the gym today, after so loooooong. I wanna have S line, something like the picture above. But i dont think it's ever gonna happen.All alone.
Have you ever had the feeling of being lonely in the inside? Even when there's human beings around you. You just feel like no one understands you.
Well, i'm feeling that right now.
In fact, i think my mind and my heart arent cooperating very well. My heart wants me to fall in love, yes, with a boy. I'm not lesbian. But my mind is telling me not to love, coz i'll only get hurt again. And just in case you're wondering, i've never been in a relationship before. And i dont think i will, not in 5 years in that case.
I'm quite a logic person. XD
I need some sleep.
It's 11.09pm. I need to get up at 5.40am tomorrow morning. No, it's not a school day. I'm heading to Seremban for an orientation. I need to sleep, but let me get done with this post first.
Hmmm.. The week had been a great one. I actually went to school fron Monday to Thursday, just because i thought cf was doing fundraising. But it was canceled at last anyway, for some reasons. I baked brownies on Monday, mummy says it's too sweet. I liked it though. Maybe i should try baking cookies next week, wednesday i suppose. =)
Thursday was a busy day in school. I ran up and down the stairs to get everything settled for CF Weekend Away. Being a vice president is not easy at all. But it's all worth it, for God.
I was suppose to hang out with my friends on Friday, to celebrate my birthday in advance. But i couldnt make it at last since i need to prepare for the CF Weekend Away. I wrapped a hamper for the first time, with the help from mummy of course. Daddy was home early, he went to get a new modem from p1. On the way back from pj, we were stucked in a terrible jam. Took us 2 hours to get back home. Hence, i need to skip YA Combine.
Saturday was a long and tiring day. I woke up at 5.40am. The CF Weeked Away was really fun. I love every session, yes, even the captain ball part eventhough it was really hot. Me no like the hawt sun. =/ After the Weekend Away, i went and got my cake. Mummy ordered it for me earlier, chocolate ice cream cake! =D It was really nais. We had a simple celebration at home and i went to bed really early.
I just finished 10 Reasons Not To Fall In Love. And i'm starting with Five People You Meet In Heaven. It's a bestseller so i hope i'll like it.
I'm really really tired now, so i better go to bed first. Nite nite.
Hmmm.. The week had been a great one. I actually went to school fron Monday to Thursday, just because i thought cf was doing fundraising. But it was canceled at last anyway, for some reasons. I baked brownies on Monday, mummy says it's too sweet. I liked it though. Maybe i should try baking cookies next week, wednesday i suppose. =)
Thursday was a busy day in school. I ran up and down the stairs to get everything settled for CF Weekend Away. Being a vice president is not easy at all. But it's all worth it, for God.
I was suppose to hang out with my friends on Friday, to celebrate my birthday in advance. But i couldnt make it at last since i need to prepare for the CF Weekend Away. I wrapped a hamper for the first time, with the help from mummy of course. Daddy was home early, he went to get a new modem from p1. On the way back from pj, we were stucked in a terrible jam. Took us 2 hours to get back home. Hence, i need to skip YA Combine.
Saturday was a long and tiring day. I woke up at 5.40am. The CF Weeked Away was really fun. I love every session, yes, even the captain ball part eventhough it was really hot. Me no like the hawt sun. =/ After the Weekend Away, i went and got my cake. Mummy ordered it for me earlier, chocolate ice cream cake! =D It was really nais. We had a simple celebration at home and i went to bed really early.
I just finished 10 Reasons Not To Fall In Love. And i'm starting with Five People You Meet In Heaven. It's a bestseller so i hope i'll like it.
I'm really really tired now, so i better go to bed first. Nite nite.
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