Urghh.

I have a test on Wednesday in Singapore. This test determines whether i go into science stream or accounts stream. Well, i prefer science of course. But we'll see where God leads me to.

Singapore tomorrow.

I'm going to Singapore tomorrow morning since my appointment with the school is on monday morning. I'm feeling guilty for having to skip church, dance practice AND ya challenge. All in a same day. Really sorry! >.<

I'm also feeling really guilty for not finishing maths like i've planned earlier. I'm such a loser. There's this guy on facebook, a friend of mine of course, he says he had studied till half of form 3. *gasp* Form 1 is already sho hard for me, how am i going to finish up till form 2 in like 2 weeks time? DIE. But i'll try my best, so that i can catch up IF i really start school in singapore.

Another thing that's worrying me alot is that coz i need to go nz for a camp on the second and third week of january next year, i'm not sure wheter the teachers there allow me to skip. I'm thinking of not reminding them about cny holidays (only if they've forgotten bout it), then maybe the chance of them letting me take lift will be higher.

Oh Lord, please help me Father. I really wanna study in singapore but i have to go to the trip since i've paid for it already. Please let everything go on smoothly. Please. Thank you. Amen.

I should've done better.

No use regretting now.

I just need to make sure i study really hard so all the money papa poured on me wont be wasted.

No more procrastinating. Enough.

I need food.

It's 2.26am and i'm hungry.

Little by little.

18 more days to christmas. 4 more weeks (i think) till school reopens. I'm not sure wheter i'll still get the chance to meet my schoolmates in cbn, but i'll still need to go back for all the transfering procedures. That is, if i'm really transfering to Pioneer. I'm not sure. That's the problem, i'm not sure wheter i'll be in singapore or malaysia next year. I think this is what they meant by 'uncertainties'. Well, i'll know by next Monday. I just need to wait. =/ Patience Alina, patience.

Ever since mummy started working, i've became for independant. I started knowing how to use the washing machine and also take a taxi. I used to be an over- protected child, but if i'm really going to stay in a hostel next year, i'll need to get use to all this. I'll learn, little by little. Have faith in me.

I'm starting to revise Maths, but i'm using a singapore secondary 1 express book. It's not THAT hard, but it needs lots of thinking. However, definitely harder than malaysia's maths. It's a form 1 book but i'm already learning circles and stuffs like that. XD My progress is a little bit slow, i need to work harder.

Age Of The Orphans. I'm still reading it. It's quite boring, i hope it'll get better towards the end.

I cant go to chloe's party, mum says it's dangerous to take lrt since it's late at night. I'm abit disappointed, but.. oh well.

An unexpected gift.

I finally got the email. The loooong awaited email.

Pioneer Secondary School. My new school next year, i think. It's in East Jurong. I've checked the school website, not that bad afterall. Looking forward to it.

Singapore, meet you next Monday. Pioneer Sec School, meet you next Monday too. ;)

another morning.

I'm alone now. Mummy and daddy went to work. Alicia is still sleeping. I'm really hungry, i didnt eat anything for dinner yesterday coz i was too tired and i fell asleep right after dance practice.

I have nothing to do now. Actually i have lots of things to do like study maths, read Age Of the Orphans, doing my quiet time, take a bath or go to the gym. But i'm just too lazy.. and hungry too.

So i shall just grab something to eat then watch Harry Potter. Sounds good aye?

Safe and sound.

I'm back home. After 6 days of nscfl camp, i now think that it wasnt enough.

Throughout the camp, God had taught me a lot, and i want to hear from Him more. I realised that i used to be a really self- centered person, wheter or not i'm still one while typing this post, that i'm not so sure. But i will try my best to change. To put God first in my life. For He had thought of me whilst on the cross.

I also fasted and for the first time. 5 hours. What surprised me was that time passed really fast. Hahaha. And i wasnt that hungry after that.

For games night, i wore a cheerleading costume. Complete with a huge ribbon and red socks. Thanks to my beloved seniors. And i think i look pretty good in it. Hahaha. XD

Special thanks to all the coaches and other campers, especially my team mates, Uncle Michael and Uncle Yew Seong. Not to forget sis Marianne for the heart touching stories.

It was a great camp. And i look forward for NSCFL camp 2012. Even if i have to rush back from singapore for it. That is, IF i really get to study there. =D

my reads

I'm finally done with The Five People You Meet In Heaven. It's a really nice book and it opens me to view life and death in a different way, not like how i used to. It makes me ponder am i living life to the fullness.. What i love about the book is the quotes about life.

That there are no random acts. that we are all connected. That you can no more separate one life from another than you can separate a breeze from the wind.

The Blue Man held out his hand. “Fairness,” he said, “does not govern life and death. If it did, no good person would ever die young.”

It is because the human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect. That death doesn’t just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed.

You say you should have died instead of me. But during my time on earth, people died instead of me, too. It happens every day. When lightning strikes a minute after you are gone, or an airplane crashes that you might have been on… We think such things are random. But there is a balance to it all. One withers, another grows, Birth and death are part of a whole.

“Strangers,” the Blue Man said, “are just family you have yet to come to know.”

“No life is a waste,” the Blue Man said. “The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone.”

“Sacrifice,” The Captain said. “You made one. I made one. We all make them. But you were angry over yours. You kept thinking about what you lost.

You didn’t get it. Sacrifice is a part of life. It’s supposed to be. It’s not something to regret. It’s something to aspire to. Little sacrifices. Big sacrifices. A mother works so her son can go to school. A daughter moves home to take care of her sick father.”

That’s the thing. Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you’re not really losing it. You’re just passing it on to someone else.

Parents rarely let go of their children, so children let go of them. They move on. They move away. The moments that used to define them – a mother’s approval, a father’s nod – are covered by moments of their own accomplishments. It is not until much later, as the skin sags and the heart weakens, that children understand; their stories, and all their accomplishments, sit atop the stories of their mothers and fathers, stones upon stones, beneath the waters of their lives.

Love like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive.

Lost love is still love, Eddie. It takes a different form, that’s all. You can’t see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it.
Life has to end,” she said. “Love doesn’t.”

Five different people, five different stories, five different lessons. I cant say there's a drastic change in my life after reading the book, but i can say i know more, about love, forgiveness, sacrifice, loyalty, and holding bitterness- the little bits that make up my life.

Looking forward to Tuesday With Morie. =)

Sunshine!!!

She's sho cute! *melted*

And all will fade away.

I'm glad i let go.
Well, i'm not gonna start another emo post here. The old me has gone. I'll try my best to be cheerful and happy all the time, and hopefully my heart will feel the same. Fighting!

I love quotes. Just a few to share.

One problem with gazing too frequently into the past is that we may turn around to find the future has run out on us. ~Michael Cibenko

You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present. ~Jan Glidewell

If you are still talking about what you did yesterday, you haven't done much today. ~Author Unknown

The past is a good place to visit, but I wouldn't want to live there. ~Author Unknown

The Past is the textbook of tyrants; the Future the Bible of the Free. Those who are solely governed by the Past stand like Lot's wife, crystallized in the act of looking backward, and forever incapable of looking before. ~Herman Melville, White Jacket

We dont wanna be like Lot's wife, do we?

#94

It's only 8.43am, but i'm really tired already. I woke up at 6am just to go to the gym with daddy. I ran 1km and cycled for more than 15 minutes. It might be a piece of cake for others but for a lazy pig like me, it almost took away my life.

Till now, my legs still hurt. It's a bit numb. My whole body's still sticky but i'm lazy to bathe.

I wanna sleep!!!

LOOK!

at her body!
This would definitely be on my wish list for my next birthday.
And also my to-achieve-list for this holiday.

Why.

I had a weird dream last night. In that dream, i had a baby brother, 2 months old i think. And while i was baking cookies for him, he was in the oven too. But he came out alright, with some black stains on his skin but still alive. He's just a baby, but he doesnt sleep.
And i woke up, shivering.
Does this dream means anything?

Mummy is mad.

She says i'm on youtube too much lately. She says i shouldnt be addicted over snsd so much. She says i should start studying for next year. She says i should prepare for the camp next week. She says i should take care of my personal stuffs. She says i must be brave to call the travel agent.
And she also says a lot of stuffs i dont understand. She keeps beating around the bush..

Just because i wouldnt go tesco with her.
And also because i ate her scrambled eggs with ham.

Gathering with 6A

After more than 1 year not seeing them, i went for a gathering with my primary school friends yesterday. Oh, how i miss them. The boys changed a lot, but the girls still look the same. XD
We had lunch at Pizza Hut, then we went to a cyber cafe. It was my first time going to a place like this, i was a bit scared at first. Probably because of all the stories my mum used to tell me about cyber cafes. Since we went in a group, we got a discount. RM 3 for 3 hours. Quite cheap for me. =D However, the speakers for my computer aint working and i was afraid to tell the workers there. Fyi, they look like gangsters. I'm not a gamer. So i just sat there and read blogs. I almost fell asleep, such a comfy place. After 1 hour, i couldnt take it anymore, i was too sleepy, so i went back home. Dayumm, i wasted RM2.

Mummy scolded me for going there, papa was okay bout it but he warned me not to go that kind of places anymore. But i'm glad i went, it was a first time and also an eye opener for me.

But still, i shall not go to a cyber cafe ever again, never.

When you're tired,

lie on me.

And no.

I dont like sweet potatoes either.

Oh.

What's with me and all the 'oh'.

Ohdamn.

I'm sick.

Ohplease.

Trying too hard will only make you look worse.

Ohshit.

I think i'm starting to fall for you. This must not happen.

Updated.

I'm living a meaningless life now. I have nothing important to do at the time being. I feel so lifeless nowadays. I should be studying maths and english, but i'm just too lazy. Procrastination is the thief of time. So true.

School ended for the year. I was suppose to be in school today, but nahhhh. Today's activity was futsal but i hate being under the sun so i stayed home. =P

I'm watching Invincible Youth Season 1. I love all the G7 members. They're all so awesome! Yuri is the funniest to me. Too bad she wont be there for Season 2. =(

I just painted my toe nails blue. Light blue to be exact.

I'm having dance practice in church tomorrow. I'm becoming so stiff lately. Oh no, I'm aging. D=

I realise i'm getting fatter too, gotta hit the gym again later.

Good news, Alicia is going New Zealand with me. =DDDD That means Henry, Baby and Angel can tag along too. After Alicia's spm, we're going shopping for new clothes. Daddy promised.

I just got the letter from SU. Needa start preparing for NSCFL. I'm excited for it since it's my first time. Hmm.. 6 days away for home, i'll miss my family.. and of course, the Internet.

I'm still waiting for the school placement email. They say they'll send it to me on the second week of December. It's one month away. But i'm feeling very kancheong dy.

Me no like waiting.

Oh crap.

I have IBT tomorrow. I paid rm75 for English, Science and Maths. I'm not prepared at all. I dont know what to study. Oh crap.

Another new favourite.

Sungha Jung!!!!

Go check him out on facebook. He's so awesome.

#proudtobeanasian

Disappointed.

Something bad happened in the ktm yesterday, and as a malaysian myself, i really felt embarassed to be one at that moment. What ever happen to 1 Malaysia? Being united as one? Those teachings in Moral and Sivik textbooks are all lies. When you're in trouble, no one will help you. This is life. This is the world.

Maybe papa was right, i should just go to Singapore and never come back.

And i thought, things would be better than before. Well, i'd rather live on trees than facing those people.

But at least now, i know not to be that stupid anymore.

Something bout me.

Since i'm bored..

Things i like:
1. Pink
2. Teddies
3. Books. Lots and lots of books.
4. Chocolate
5. Joining camps
6. Meeting new people
7. Watching dramas

Things i dislike
1. Curses
2. Really hot weather
3. Being under the hawt sun
4. Growing sideways
5. Getting Bs in exams
6. Chillies, inions. garlics, carrots, kiwis
7. The dark

Things i want:
1. To be a succesful doctor
2. Make lotsa money, so i can bless others.
3. More books!
4. More nais dramas!
5. More As in exams
6. A long lasting relationship, not now though.
7. Study in Singapore

Miracle.

I went to the gym today, after so loooooong. I wanna have S line, something like the picture above. But i dont think it's ever gonna happen.

All alone.

Have you ever had the feeling of being lonely in the inside? Even when there's human beings around you. You just feel like no one understands you.

Well, i'm feeling that right now.

In fact, i think my mind and my heart arent cooperating very well. My heart wants me to fall in love, yes, with a boy. I'm not lesbian. But my mind is telling me not to love, coz i'll only get hurt again. And just in case you're wondering, i've never been in a relationship before. And i dont think i will, not in 5 years in that case.

I'm quite a logic person. XD

I need some sleep.

It's 11.09pm. I need to get up at 5.40am tomorrow morning. No, it's not a school day. I'm heading to Seremban for an orientation. I need to sleep, but let me get done with this post first.

Hmmm.. The week had been a great one. I actually went to school fron Monday to Thursday, just because i thought cf was doing fundraising. But it was canceled at last anyway, for some reasons. I baked brownies on Monday, mummy says it's too sweet. I liked it though. Maybe i should try baking cookies next week, wednesday i suppose. =)

Thursday was a busy day in school. I ran up and down the stairs to get everything settled for CF Weekend Away. Being a vice president is not easy at all. But it's all worth it, for God.

I was suppose to hang out with my friends on Friday, to celebrate my birthday in advance. But i couldnt make it at last since i need to prepare for the CF Weekend Away. I wrapped a hamper for the first time, with the help from mummy of course. Daddy was home early, he went to get a new modem from p1. On the way back from pj, we were stucked in a terrible jam. Took us 2 hours to get back home. Hence, i need to skip YA Combine.

Saturday was a long and tiring day. I woke up at 5.40am. The CF Weeked Away was really fun. I love every session, yes, even the captain ball part eventhough it was really hot. Me no like the hawt sun. =/ After the Weekend Away, i went and got my cake. Mummy ordered it for me earlier, chocolate ice cream cake! =D It was really nais. We had a simple celebration at home and i went to bed really early.

I just finished 10 Reasons Not To Fall In Love. And i'm starting with Five People You Meet In Heaven. It's a bestseller so i hope i'll like it.

I'm really really tired now, so i better go to bed first. Nite nite.

i'm in love

in a deep love.

in a deep deep love.

in a deep deep deep love.

with SNSD. =D

I lied.

I've brought disgrace to myself.

I've brought disgrace to my family.

I told a lie.

I told a teeny weeny lie to a friend.

Kill me.

Slap me.

No wait, dont kill me.

So here is how the story goes..

I was playing a game with a friend of mine, AP. We were quizzing each other. I answered most of AP's questions correctly, and i made him think that i'm very smart.

But then, i cheated. I didnt do it myself.

Instead,

I googled.

Like what Pastor once said, thank God for the Internet. =D

ihateme.

I hate my pride.

What a miracle.

I am now sitting alone in a small room, facing the screen of papa's old laptop. Eventhough it's old, there's little stains on it and the battery dries up really fast, i still prefer this more than the new one. It's still drizzling outside, i'm feeling a little cold, but i'm still eating ice cream. McFlurry Oreo, i love it to bits. <3

I'm happy, really happy, coz my schedule is packed with things i love doing. Nscfl camp in the end of November, then there's cakp camp, 2 of them maybe, Singapore trip in the mid of December, Christmas, last but not least Huge camp in the end of December. It will be my first time in nscfl camp, i cant wait to meet the people there, it's a 5- days camp and i'm sure i'm gonna have much fun. I was suppose to take cakp test this year, but since most probably i'm going singapore next year, no use taking anymore, but i can still take part in my friends' camp, be their member and help them out, now i need to find a way to explain to the teachers why i'm not taking the test. D= I'm still waiting for the school placement letter, i hope i get a good school, it'll be somewhere around hillview i think. After getting the letter i need to report myself in the new school and also the hostel, i admit i'm a bit afraid of what's gonna happen, but i can do it. I know i can. =) Christmas... Ahhh~ Dont we just love christmas. I'm performing a dance in church this year. Teehee. Huge camp is gonna be a blast! I'm sure of it. Cant wait to meet up with the people i met in huge camp last year, they are all so kind and nice.

I might be starting school in Singapore in February next year, that is if everything goes as planned. That means i still have a chance to spend like a week with my friends in cbn, settle everything here, prepare myself for the adventures ahead, before i fly to New Zealand for 1o days. And then when i come back, it's chinese new year. Oh how i love receiving ang paos! $.$ After cny, i'm heading to Singapore to start another new chapter in my life. ;)

Let's just hope everything goes as i planned it, ok?

And right now, i need to start studying since everyone says the education system in singapore is harder. Then i need to do log books to get more badges, just so i look cooler when i'm in NZ. XD And finish all my storybooks! I'm left with Impression, 10 reasons not to fall in love, The five people you meet in heaven and The age of orphans. 3 down, 4 more to go.

Let the adventure begin!

Just keep going.

Have you ever had the experience of, before even starting a new task, you're already feeling like giving up.
That's exactly what i'm experiencing now...
Maybe i'm dreaming too big, maybe i should just stay wherever i am now and go with the flow, just play safe.
But i'm not like that, i dont wanna be, i always wanted to try something new, and now i'm given the chance. If i give up now, someday i'm going to look back and regret, i know i will. I may not be as smart as the scholars, but i'll work hard. I promise myself. The future is not a bed of roses for me, but i'm willing to accept the challege. I can do it, because God is with me.
I just have to keep swimming if i dont wanna drown.
And now.. i need to find a way to terminate my trip to new zealand. Ouch.

Fingers crossed.

I'm hoping that I can study in Singapore and also go to the camp in New Zealand. But am i asking too much?

Oh no.

I think i'm leaving. Need to start studying again. -.-

No.

I'm not okay. I've never been.

Trying too hard.

Pmr ended a week ago. I'm free now. NOT! I'm starting with my bintang 1, 2 more log books left. I'd rather study for an exam than doing all this, it's stressing, tiring and boring. D=

I feel like a coward, seriously. I want to try many things, i want to improve myself in many ways, but i'm afraid to leave my comfort zone. Or should i say, i'm afraid to fail. Stewpit me, for always having the pride.

Which makes me think.. Is all 15 years old teenagers like this? Always stressing themself up with piles and piles of work, staying up late just to get all the work done before the sun rises up again. I feel different.. When all my other friends can just hang out whenever they want, i need to check my calender everytime they ask me out. Should a kid like me live this kind of life? It's not fun.. at all.

And i'm thinking again.. Am i trying to hard? I'm a perfectionist, but is there any way not to be one. I'm always trying to be the perfect daughter for my parents. I study hard, i dont break rules and i follow exactly what they say (at least most of the time i do). I try to be the perfect friend, the perfect student and even the perfect neighbour. -.- There's this neighbour of mine who really pisses me off, but still i've never said no whenever she asks for help, again and again. Maybe i'm just a coward, but whatever, it's not the point here. And now.. i'm trying hard to be the perfect vice president for my school cf, which makes me feel like a big failure since i dont think i'm doing enough, i dont think i'm even doing anything actually. Ishhh.. I suck.

I think i should try harder then. =/

Shame.

I have humiliated myself.

I have shamed myself.

Slap me.

Kill me.

Ok. Dont kill me.

The thruth is.. i cant believe i scored better for my bm than my science and english. Am i really THAT stupid? *bang head agaisnt wall*

I got 85 for BM. It was really unexpected coz i didnt have enough time actually. But i'm still greatful.

80 for english. I cant believe i only got 5 marks for the novel part! *slap ownself* I regret for not spending more time on the novels, i admit i underestimated it coz i thought that part only worth 10 marks, whereas the guided writing is 30 marks.

But i was wrong.

I was really wrong.

That part pulled me down.. *burst into tears*

Maths 99. *heartbreak* One careless mistake! Shame on you Alina.

Science 80. Let's not talk about it. I feel so dumb already.

Sejarah 91, Geografi 98 and kh 87. All of these were okay. I dont really care much.

So pmr is in.. 2 weeks. I'm dead. I'm so dead. I really need to work hard on my english and science. I need to learn more idioms and vocabularies. I need to read more books, especially textbooks. I need to stop blabbering here and go back to my workbooks. So many things, but so little time...

Back to my pile of books, tata~

second trials

Second trials finally started, 4 papers down. 3 more to go!

BM paper 1 was okay. Paper 2 was a bit hard, and i didnt have enough time. So i pretty much just blabber what i know. Hopefully the teacher understands what i'm saying. *prays hard* For my last trials, BM is the only paper i didnt get an A for. So now i really need an A!!! D=

English was okay. Paper 1 wrong 3. Paper 2 also not enough time. =.= What am i so slow lately. I think i seriously need to learn time management.

Maths was okay too. =D Paper 1 all correct. Hopefully same goes to paper 2.

Me, Cai Ying and Vicky signed up for the IBT test. That means after Pmr i still needa work on my English, Maths and Science. I need a life! A carefree one at least.. *daydreaming*

I'm going to nscfl camp this year. First time! Everyone says it's fun. So i'm really looking forward to it. Then maybe going to Phuket, Thailand. And not to forget cakp, youth camp and huge camp. I really hope the time wont clash for all the camps. And then there's bintang 1, bintang 2, kelas 1, bintang 3... I guess my holidays arent getting any better. =/

Haiz..

staying home

For some reasons, i'm not going to singapore anymore. =(

Madness.

I've been quite busy these days. Stuffing my raya holiday life with books and dramas. Ahhhh.. This is my kind of life! Except it woud've better if i get to shop too, sadly i'm poor. =(

There's a book fest at klcc and i've been wanting to go for a looong time. Vicky went and said it was awesome! So on Wednesday i finally got a chance and went. *tears of joy* It was HUE-MUN-GOUSSS! Too bad i didnt had much time. I was there a bit late and it's a bit crowded too. =/

But fortunately i still got 7 books. Yesshhh, seven thick books! It would take me 3 months to finish everything. XD

After 6 days, i'm finally done with Harry Potter. I know i'm slow, but it has 607 pages! Average 100 pages in a day. Madness for me. And it's the thickest book i've ever read. Maybe after i finish the 7 books i just bought, and then the 3 books my sister bought, i can buy harry potter. =D

Still studying Kh.. T.T Me no like KH!!!

Raya break

Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends!!! =D

When all of them are partying and getting duit raya, i'm stuck at home studying boring kh. Booo.. This is the worst holiday for me in my entire 15 years of living. Mummy is always reminding me pmr is coming which really scares me a lot. The pile of revision books on the rack arent making my holidays any better too. ='( And it's only TUESDAY, that means i have five more days to go. How am i going to survive till school reopens, and of course till pmr ends?? Thank God i have astro, it helps a little. And also my books. *ahem* I need to make myself clear, not textbooks nor revision books, but my awesome storybooks! Whenever i read, i feel like i've gone to another world. A magical world with lots of ups and downs, sometimes quite scary, but at the end of the day, the good side wins. Comfirm one! Which is of course a good thing.

Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince is an awesome book. Maybe i should get the whole series. =/

This is love

Melts

OMG They are the cutest thing everrrr!

Change for the better

The picture above is indeed really funny, at least it is for me larh. =D But think again, i shoudn't be glad, instead i should be afraid and kan cheong that the climate is changing. No joke. We're dying!!! *slap ownself*

I've too have changed. I realised what's important in my life: God, family, studies and friends.
What's less important in my life: chocolates, ice cream and shopping. And what's not important in my life: boys, facebook and kpop. So i should spend more time on the important stuffs and only work on the not important stuffs in weekends. Sounds like a good plan aye?

I've also made my decision, i'll stop kasturi tuition for September, but i will still go to the seminar of course. Just in case there's any good tips. Teehee. ;) Then i'll get more time to rest and work on the topics that i'm weak at. Instead of sitting in class gossiping with my girlfriends or listening to teachers blabber the stuffs that i already know. Well, i'm not saying i'm smart until i know everything and i dont need the teachers to teach me anymore, but since they are doing revision why not i revise myself at home. Can save money summore. =D

Back to kh. Baii!

bangga

I'm proud to say that i've been a good girl for the whole week, i didnt facebook for 5 days! *bangga* It's so hard for me to not touch the laptop from monday to friday, but only to check my emails of course. I've successfully resist every temptations! =D

So i got number 2 this time. Damn sad. Thanks to Bm. I got cemerlang for both of my essays but i did pretty badly for ringkasan and novel. Didnt get the right isi. So i'm going to work hard for my bm and gerak gempur is on 6 sept. D= I dont have enough time!!! And Vicky has improved so much lately, which is a good thing coz she'll make me work harder coz i hate loosing. Shoot i just said out one of my biggest secret. Nevermind, i need to learn to put down my pride seriously. But still, word peace! (Y) Teehee.

Other than Gerak Gempur and Pmr, i'm studying hard for another test. And all these brain storming had killed most of my brain cells. I feel so dumb honestly.

Go Fight! Go Win! Go Fight Win!

Done talking about studies, wednesday was hari patriotik, and i pontenggg! Actually it's because mummy was lazy to send me to school. XD I stayed home to watch a tvb drama called Gun Metal Grey. I <3 Jessica Hester Hsuan especially her role in Just Love. *melts* Me and my sister practically finished 30 episodes in one day. And i only slept 2 hours 45 minutes that night. Madness. And the second day i still needa wake up at 5.45 am for school and after school i had tuition till 5pm, so i slept during geo class. First time sleeping in kasturi during class. Yay me!

On Thursday we had doa hajat, where all christians gather together to pray for the pmr and spm students. Other religions have their own activity too of course. The worship was awesome. And the pastors from metro tabernacle was awesome too. They gave us free prayer bookmarks which were all so pretty. I took 3 but then later my friend took everything. Later we had free mcd for lunch which is needless to say awesome too. End up the whole event was awesome to the max!

On friday bk class was canceled. Actually i wanted to go ts and pav with my friends but mummy didnt allow. So i went back home feeling disappointed and sad. *sob* Nahhh, i was okay with it. I went home to sleep instead. XD

I'm done with The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks. I abandoned it for awhile during trials. It's actually pretty good. I *heart* love stories. ;) And then i read Yue Ding, a chinese novel. And i have to admit my chinese sucks a lot now. I'm reading When Stars Fall now, it's really boring so i'm still wondering should i continue to stick with it or just dump it somewhere. In the meantime, i'm reading Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince. It's really thick so i guess it'll be able to entertain me for some time before i get something new. Maybe i'll force my parents to bring me to the book festival in klcc, Vicky says there's really cheap books. =D

Which one are you?

Pav with friends

So today I went to school as usual. But i was really hyper today! XD Talked a lot, as usual. Jumped around a lot, as usual too. But i felt really down when i got my BM paper, 77 which is a friggin B. =( Nobody got A in my class, which is also something really sad. Hopefully Pn Aizan wont come and scold us again like last time. *fingers crossed*

After school I went to Pavillion with Hui Qi, Vicky, Chloe, Mee Yan and Yee Ying. They wanted to take the cab so we went and waited in front of AIA building. Not to forget, under the hawtt sun! =.= Many cabs ignored us, eventhough we're under the hawtt sun! Pffft. Fortunately, two cabs came at the same time. Hui Qi, Vicky and Yee Ying shared one, me, Chloe and Mee Yan took the second one. They spent rm5++, we needed rm7. -.- Got cheated! Stewpit cab driver.. >.<

We met KY at Pavillion, YY was sick so she couldnt come. KY was all so lonely coz none of us talk to him. LOL. Me, Hui Qi and Vicky went Baskin Robins while the other 3 girls changed their clothes. KY dont know go where lepak dy~ I tried Peanut Butter N Chocolate for the first time! It was okay, a little bit too sweet though. After that got popcorns for lunch and ate in the cinema.

The movie was awesome! I laughed really loud. XD *malu* But thank God there werent many people in the cinema that time. After that we went Snow Flakes. I got the bestseller but cant finish by myself, so ended up wasted a little. Little bit only larh~ Then went to get Sticky for Alicia. See, i'm such a good sister. 0=) *angelic smile*

Chloe wanted to meet up with some friends in Time Square. So we walked there. I never knew there's so many cheap but nais clothes in Farenheit 88, i'm sho going back next time! We met up with 4 people at Ampang Bowl. 2 boys from mbs and 2 unknown girls. I dont know them so i just stood at the side when Chloe chatted with them. What to do~ I'm shy XD LOL.

Back to my books =)

Weeeee~

I sho agree with the statement above. ^

I finished watching Just Love 2. Honestly, i feel a little lost. *drama* Coz i really loveeeee it. *more drama* But still, i needa go on my life no matter what happens, and this is just a 20 episodes drama. I'll find some other dramas to entertain myself. XD

Got my KH paper today. Ms Woon is still the same. =( But that's what makes her so special, and of course, lovable! So i shall share with you my results, to whoever that is reading this. I wonder is there anyone who even reads this blog, except my close friends of course. 0.o
Science- 91
Maths- 96
Sej- 93
KH- 85
I got 80 for my Geo. =( But today i heard from a friend that there's some corrections. She says 5 questions. So i'll just pray hard that i can get the 5 questions correctly. *fingers crossed*

I'm going Pav with my friends tomorrow. Gonna meet some new people too. Excited! =D

Cowboy Vs Alien

Yesterday dad came home quite early and he got us tickets to a movie. Mum said he actually wanted to give me a surprise but i was so into the drama i didnt give any response. XD Dad must felt very zha dou.

We left at 9pm so when we were early there. Got some stuffs at Watson, then ice cream at Baskin Robins. Got popcorns, and into the cinema we go!

The show was actually quite boring. I almost fell asleep in the middle. Dont really get everything. =/

Good news, i finished watching Just Love. *screams*

Complicated

I hate my brain. Too active. And in a negative way. I always think stuffs i know i shouldnt. Which is really bad. And also it hurts many people. =(

I still wanna go. Nothing's changing my mind! Lalalalala~ =P

Got a few papers today. Not really happy.. but i know i'm too greedy. I seriously need to learn to be grateful. If not i'll stress myself to death someday. Which is not a good thing either. D=
Science- 91
Maths paper 1- 39/40
Geo- 80
Sej- 93
Not that bad right? Except Geo, which is a total disaster.

Finally, you told the truth. Eventhough i'm the one who asked you to say it. =.= But i'm actually really shocked that you really DID say it, or should i say typed it? When i think again, maybe you're not lying. Maybe you really DO feel that way. I've been hurting you again and again. Now it's time to set you free. Although i've never actually locked you up. =.= So this is the ending.. Everything will end in a fight. Or something like that la~ XD
Is this even counted as a fight?? LOL.

I know. It's time for me to fly! *jumps out the window* Jk jk~

Ended

Trials are officially over! *shout for joy* I worked hard for this, i wanna make sure i do my best. And i only slept 3 hours last night. So i'm really sleepy now, i feel so dizzy. @.@

Different

I think i've changed. I think differently now. Things that used to be really important to me, doesnt seem to be so important anymore. Some, i dont even give a d*mn anymore. In just a few days, i think i've grown, a lot, i feel more mature now, is that possible?

Future

How the future generation shapes up, only time will tell...

I want to go!!! But how to go??

Useless

It's a Sunday, when everybody is spending happy moments with their family. I'm here, all alone.. *emo* Nahhh, actually my mum and Alicia is here with me too, but SLEEPING! Pigs.

I'm having my Sejarah paper tomorrow. I thought i'm prepared, but i just did the score A eTrial Exam and i got 82 and 79. -.- How to sit for exam tomorrow? But when i look again, some of their answers are wrong. So i'll just assume it's their problem and that my sejarah still rawks! *tipu diri sendiri*

And honestly, i dont like doing the score A thingy. Maybe for others it works and help them a lot. My for me, it just gives me another stewpit reason why i should go online other than watching Khuntoria and checking my emails, which are in my must-do list. But the school seems to like it a lot and they're forcing us to do in many different ways, so to make sure that my name is not called during assembly again i shall fulfill my responsibility as a cbner and also a group leader and do the exercises there.. someday. XD

It's already August now, why havent they send me any mails?! I hate waiting. It makes me feel so useless and dumb.

I'm having geo and kh this wednesday. I'm happy coz i'll be free in 3 more days. I'm sad coz i havent finish studying Geo and i havent started KH. Life sucks to be a student. >.<

Wheee~

Feeling good =)

3 down, 4 more to go.

I'm having my trials now, been stressing myself a lot. Thank God i can cheer myself up with Parental Guidance. But now i'm done with both series, what to do?!

Anyways, wednesday we had our bm paper. Paper 1 was hard, as usual. Paper 2 was so-so. Hopefully can get A. 80 and above, wow. D= *prays hard*

Thursday, English. Paper 1 was okay, i think i wrong 1 question dy. Paper 2 was okay too, this time i added a few proverbs. *bangga* =)

Today Maths. Paper 1 wrong 1 question, paper 2 also 1. For now la~ I wanna get 90 and above!!!

Monday Sejarah paper, hopefully can get 90 and above..

Tonight go YA combine, but i'm not going. *guilty* Not that i'm lazy, well i am lazy but not in this case. My neighbour's son is having a full moon party. Steamboat! Sheet, i'm getting fat. -.-

My friend is right, since i already said i want to forgive and forget. I shouldnt still be angry at her. *take a deep breath* Maybe i should try talking to her again~ Maybe i shouldnt.. We'll see what happens. ;)

I'm planning to go out with my friends after trials. I want watch harry potter!! and Hanna!! *excited*

2 more days

Yeap. 2 more days to trials. Not sure i'm ready anot. Teacher just announced that they had increase the passing marks for A, now we need 80. I'm scared for BM, coz normally i just get 75, hopefully can get 80+ this time. *prays hard*

Something happened in school today and i'm really pissed. It's sooooo obvious it's not my fault! Whatever.. *takes a deep breath*

I wanna watch this so badly!!! My mummy says only after trials. =/ *grumbles*

Currently watching this. It's sho funny. =D I'm watching this eventhough it's 2 days before trials. Yay me!

Imma continue my kh tuition. =)

hg outing

Today was tiring. As usual, went to school. It was raining this morning. *shivers*

After that cf jamuan, Dominos again. Shoot! I'm getting fat D=

Actually i thought a friend of mine was mad at me, dont know why. Thank God that it was just a misunderstanding. She's talking to me now. =)

Then went mckl. Yeshhhh, i go college for classes! *excited* They're having some party and all of them were dressing in awesome costumes. I saw barney the purple dinasour!

Class was ok. Didnt sleep eventhough i kept yawning. Thanks to the mentos. XD

Then took monorail to time square. Went hunting for a present for my senior. Found a small pouch. Cute and affordable. Sorry arh.. I no money =(

Had dinner at Leo's with fellow hg members and 4 visitors. Actually wanted to eat at shabu- shabu but then we cant connect the table so we left. Too bad i didnt know my other friends (chloe, yy and those mbs guys) were there, if not i would've cabut to meet up with them. =/

We went bowling later on. Yes i know i suck. Got 28 points only. *emo* But i striked once! *miracle*

Walk to hang tuah lrt station at 11pm. Never knew pudu jail was sho hugeeee. I is katak di bawah tempurung.

Wanna sleep le. Going pasar tomorrow with mummy. I want go find dvd for the hk drama i've been searching for all this while. Yes, i'm getting pirated dvds. *guilty*

90 degree bow

Repent-ing..

w0w

Now how??

Yerrrr, my both of my best friends, yesh i have to best friends, are making me having second thoughts. NOOOOO!!!

I'll just surrender everything to God. We'll see what's his plan =)

JuLy

Yesterday i got a ribena that costs rm2.70 from a 7 eleven. The packet was really oily, but lazy me didnt care and just took it. But when justin, or izit zachary.. open it for me, IT WAS REALLY SMELLY!! I was like.. OMG. And so i took it back to exchange a new one, thank God he let me have a new one. Which taste like normal =) I will never buy food from that 7 eleven again. Never! Heng =P

Our school renjer puteri had its annual agm, i was selected to be the naib setiausaha. Nooo.. Not something to be proud about =/

I.AM.GETTING.OLD.

What is life

Happy? Sure. Kiss? Nooo. Love? Only God. Forgive? Hard but must.

LOL.

Buses??

So true.

Teeheeee. =)